can we go back to the day when our love was strong?
its the perfect love gone wrong.

my.hands.tied.heart's.not.free.
perhaps.
its.just.not.meant.to.be.
you.have.been.good.to.me
but

byebye.baby.byebye.

i am the epitome of emotional contradiction and creator of painful entanglements.

the usual suspect said::

Desperate for changing, starving for truth.I'm closer to where I started, I'm chasing after you.I'm falling even more in love with you.Letting go of all I've held on to.I'm standing here until you make me move.I'm hanging by a moment here with you.Forgetting all I'm lacking, completely incomplete.I'll take your invitation, you take all of me now.I'm falling even more in love with you.Letting go of all I've held on to.I'm standing here until you make me move.I'm hanging by a moment here with you.I'm living for the only thing. I knowI'm running and not quite sure where to go.And I don't know what I'm diving into.Just hanging by a moment here with you.There's nothing else to lose, there's nothing else to find.There's nothing in the world that can change my mind.There is nothing else.



i mite be happy without you.
ill be lonely all the same.

the usual suspect said::

i dont need another day in paradise.
been there done that =)

the usual suspect said::

i think im diseased.
never felt such acute exhaustion
stuck in a spirallin pattern of deep careless slumber
missin lessons handin in half baked essays
im failin and i know why

sugar we're going down
we're so going down together

i wake up after 15 hrs of sleep
and crave the sheets after 2 hrs of mindless bummin
or incoherent lectures/ tutorials
wad do u call the opp of an insomniac?

concert shud be neverendin
gives me the reason to drive on
where my personal demons go on holiday
and i jus slog and forget ownin a personality
performance is my intimate lover
i embrace a self moulded character i forget the one i call my own
i dont like mine much to begin with

you're rubbish gracie
absolute rubbish.


i dont wanna say goodbyes
i loathe goodbyes
why is it me?
why is it always me?


i dont wanna be in the real world.
there shud be no such thing.
no rules no limits
no drama no heartache
no walkin jus runnin
no emotions to be stripped naked





"its not just you. im black and blue too."


justin timberlake - cry me a river

the usual suspect said::

something i found on google:

Alternatives to Animal Testing
Thanks to advancements in modern technology and a growing number of scientists seeking a better way, there are non-animal methods for testing products currently in use and more are being developed every year. These safe, innovative and reliable alternatives are not only saving animals' lives, they often provide the necessary data in a shorter time and at less cost than the traditional animal tests.

After a new test is developed, it must go through a rigorous validation process before results from the test are regarded as reliable for general use. This process involves review and hearings by experts through the National Toxicology Program Interagency Center for the Evaluation of Alternative Toxicological Methods (NICEATM) and the Interagency Coordinating Committee on the Validation of Alternative Methods (ICCVAM).

Although scientists have concluded that no single non-animal alternative thus far developed can completely replace animal tests like the Draize test, companies are able to avoid animal testing by relying on a battery of non-animal alternatives, including in vitro (test tube) technology. They also refer to the U.S. GRAS (Generally Regarded As Safe), a list of thousands of ingredients already known to be safe, as well as information on historical use and chemical structure. Human clinical studies are also a valuable and accepted means of testing products, especially for biomedical and medical device testing.

Some of the most commonly used non-animal product safety tests include:
Agarose Diffusion Method, is used to determine the toxicity of plastics and other synthetic materials used in medical devices. In this test, human cells and a small amount of test material are placed in a container and separated by a thin layer of agarose, a derivative of the sea plant agar. If the test material is an irritant, a zone of killed cells appears around the substance.

Computer and Mathematical Models, predicts the irritancy of test substances on the basis of physical and chemical structures and properties.

EpiDerm, uses neonatal foreskin-derived normal skin cells grown into 3-dimensional tissue for dermal irritancy testing, percutaneous absorption studies and basic skin research.

EpiOcular, uses an artificial tissue manufactured like EpiDerm, but which is more similar to the cornea, the outermost covering of the eye.

Epipack Test, uses sheets of cloned human skin cells to estimate a human's reaction to a skin irritant.

Irritection Assay, uses a protein alteration system to assess irritancy. Changes in the protein matrix caused by foreign materials are indicative of potential irritation of eye or skin tissue.

Neutral Red Bioassay, uses a neutral red, a water-soluble dye, which is added to normal human skin cells in a 96-well tissue culture plate. A computer measurement of the level of uptake of the dye by the cells is used to indicate relative toxicity, eliminating observer bias.

Transepithelial Passage Assay, measures the chemical-induced in an artificial barrier layer constructed of human (in some cases animal) cells to estimate the eye irritation potential of chemicals.

The following non-animal based test has been declared valid by ICCVAM:
Corrositex Assay, for use in evaluating the corrosivity or burn potential of certain classes of chemicals, uses a collagen matrix barrier as a kind of artificial skin and pH indicator dyes to detect how long it take a chemical to penetrate this barrier.

The following alternatives, while they may use animal parts or cells as part of the test, significantly reduce the number of live animals currently used to test toxicity:
3T3 NRU PT is a cytotoxicity test in which mouse-derived cells are exposed both to test chemicals and to visible light to measure the phototoxic potential of chemicals.

Bovine Corneal Opacity and Permeability Assay (BCOP), which uses bovine corneas obtained as a by-product of normal slaughterhouse procedures to measure direct opacity and permeability to fluorescein, reflecting damage to corneal epithelium.

Chorioallantoic Membrane (CAM) Test, which uses fertilized chicken eggs to evaluate eye irritancy by observing the reaction of the chorioallanoic membrane to test substances.
The following alternatives may use whole animals as part of the test or to provide tissue each time the test is run. However they reduce the number of animals used or lessen the amount of suffering of the animals as opposed to the normal animal test that they replace. These alternatives are examples of "reduction" or "refinement" tests, not "replacements" for animals in testing altogether. See What are the 3 "Rs"?

Frog Embryo Teratogenesis Assay (FETAX), which uses frog embryos to evaluate the developmental toxicity potential of chemicals.

Local Lymph Node Assay, which can be used for assessing the allergic contact dermatitis potential of chemicals. This replaces existing guinea pig tests with tests on mice and reduces the number animals used and the time taken to perform the test. This has already been validated by ICCVAM.

Rat Skin Transcutaneas Electrical Resistance (TER), which uses skin discs taken from the pelts of young rats to predict the corrosive potential of chemicals.




animal testing can be abolished.
violent acts of cruelty may be neccessary to determine if vital medications n healthcare products are safe for human usage.
but not anymore.
with research and technology such acts of bad karma can be phased out.
gradually =)
its no overnight miracle but as such procedures become more cost effective
there is no reason mercenary multi national conglomerate tyrants that earn more than a few peripheral countries or economically less developed nations combined wont comply.
idealistic but not impossible.

bodyshop's doin perfectly fine in its bid to ease third world exploitation n boost trade while holding a staunch stand against animal testing.

neccessity is the mother of all inventions
just to quote ester boserup.
bugger, it can be done!
is it just me or do i sense cynicism?





escapade - janet jackson

the usual suspect said::

concert's over.
and may i say it was wonderful.

darlings, we were wonderful tonight.



concert = cast + sets + costume + tech + ticketing + marketing + music

more picts to come!

my bitches thanks fer showin support.
for my very first foray into theatre production
its not world class stuff but im grateful anyway


this is only the beginning afterall.
my first step starts from here
raffles hall. my home.




bigger than my body - john mayer

the usual suspect said::

when i was little
i would look up at the sky
my blue canvas
paint the future with my rainbow palette
visions will crystalise
dreams will be realised

now im bigger
the world evolved its no longer the same
which way to turn
which path to tread on
should i jus stagnate

powerless to fight the human tide
or to escape the wrath of life
i watch as time slips by
i jus wanna be little again

i wanna stay
or stay away
i wanna stay beautifully little again



my tears run
when i revisit that old canteen scene
where six girls in their blue pinafores n low belts
sippin 50 cents teh tarik or ice milo
bitchin bout our oh so dramatic life with insufferable boy-cows n tactical methods against parental units n sch authority
the chiming of hymms to signify a lesson to attend
smokin breaks in nearby blocks (SHK sessions)
we were together everyday
not in diff institutions diff parts of the world
seein diff ppl pursuing diff goals
wantin diff things
we were simpler
i was happier



i just wanna be little again


xiao shi hou - nan quan ma ma & jay chou

the usual suspect said::

im officially freakin out.
insane in the membrane.

the usual suspect said::

concert's a couple of days away
by now i shud be quakin in my boots
but im really anticipating fridae
where finally all the hrs of sheer diligence and frustration of not gettin a scene or line rite
will all be revealed in its greatest splendor
all those who mourned my absence
this is the cause for it
i hope its gd enuff to justify all the lost in action moments

that aside
finally my mid terms are over
which prob means two botched papers and one positively glowin one
thats my ps one
which i devoted a couple of hrs of studyin in between rehearsals
got the concept of divine right theory down pat
im keepin my fingers crossed bout my nationalism essay
sch has been sucha blur.

concert got the best of me.
i hope u fab folks comin see the best of me.
from the tv prancin to a full fledged musical to call my own
my dream come true.



cryin - aerosmith
There was a time
When I was so broken hearted
Love wasn't much of a friend of mine
The tables have turned, yeah
Cause me and them ways have parted
That kind of love was the killin' kind
Now listen
All I want is someone
I can't resist I know all I need to know by the way that I got kissed

I was cryin' when I met you
Now I'm tryin' to forget you
Love is sweet misery I was cryin' just to get you
Now I'm dyin' because I let you
Do what you do - down on me

Now there's not even breathin' room
Between pleasure and pain
Yeah you cry when we're makin' love
Must be one and the same
It's down on me
Yeah I got to tell you one thing
It's been on my mind
Girl I gotta say
We're partners in crime
You got that certain something
What you give to me
Takes my breath away
Now the word out on the street
Is the devil's in your kiss
If our love goes up in flames
It's a fire I can't resist

I was cryin' when I met you
Now I'm tryin' to forget you
Your love is sweet misery
I was cryin' just to get you
Now I'm dyin' cause I let you
Do what you do to me
Cause what you got inside
Ain't where your love should stay
Yeah, our love, sweet love, ain't love
If you give your heart away

I was cryin' when I met you
Now I'm tryin' to forget you
Your love is sweet misery
I was cryin' just to get you
Now I'm dyin' just to let you
Do what you do what you do down to me, baby, baby, baby





anyone has that song? send it to me.
i want it so bad!!!
=)


the usual suspect said::

Sorry I never told you all I wanted to say
And now it's too late to hold you
Cause you've flown away, so far away

Never had I imagined, living without your smile
Feelin, knowin' you hear me
It keeps me alive, alive

And I know you're shining down on me from heaven
Like so many friends we've lost along the way
And I know eventually we'll be together
One sweet day
I'll wait patiently to see you in heaven

I never showed you
Assummed you'd, always be there
And I, I took your presence for granted
But I always cared (I always cared)
And I miss the love we shared

Although the sun will never shine the same
I'll always look to a brighter day
Lord I know when I lay me down to sleep
You will always listen as I pray

And I know you're shining down on me from heaven
Like so many friends we've lost along the way
And I know eventually we'll be together
One sweet day



Sorry I never told you, all I wanted to say
i will always love and miss you Mom.

the usual suspect said::

what ive been up to:

www.raffles.nus.edu.sg/concert0506

feast your eyes!






grace khoo - me against myself

the usual suspect said::

gracie lou freebush
miss artful dodger
1986
st.nicks/cjc/nus theatre studies
//
Let each man exercise the art he knows.
Aristophanes

The drama is not dead but liveth
and contains the germs of better things.
-william archer

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is this the real life?
is this just fantasy?
caught in a landslide
no escape from reality
open your eyes, look up to the skies and see
-queen

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