Thunderbolt and lightning, very, very fright'ning [:

Thursday, May 27, 2004

im trying to hold on to wad little i have left sara.

the usual suspect said::

5/27/2004 12:45:00 PM :D

Sunday, May 23, 2004

to myself:
i wish you wld step right off that ledge my friend
we cld cut ties with all the lies that you've been living in

the usual suspect said::

5/23/2004 06:29:00 PM :D

Thursday, May 20, 2004

YOU ARE AN Anglo-Chinese School (Independent) BOY!
You are a sweet-natured person, though constantly
seeking attention and affirmation from your
peers. You are not very hard working...

Which Singapore School are YOU FROM?
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OH YUCK!

the usual suspect said::

5/20/2004 10:03:00 PM :D

Tuesday, May 18, 2004

im supremely annoyed.

was a miscommunication but it irritated me to the bones all the same
if there is one thing i loathe with the entirety of my heart
it wld be waiting
i hate waiting.

time of ur life that ur never gonna get back
spent on absolutely NOTHING
sheer horror.

there are moments when i can get so pumped up with anger and irritation
i jus wanna work those tonsils and let rip.
of a scream that is
a mindblowing eyedrum shattering scream
in my isolation of thought and misguided perceptions
screaming is therapy
i dreamt that all my pent-up frustrations and insecurities will face automatic expulsion

the thing is.
ive never tried it.

social restrains. image consciousness. the bane of our society.
we cant do wad we truly wanna do.
we cant say wad we wanna say and
somethings these mental restrains are so choking
we are forbid to think of what we wanna think abt.

u can control my actions.
does that mean that u can control my mind now as well?

or did i let ya?

Let it burn
When the feelin aint the same in your body
Don't want to,But you know you gotta let it go
Cuz the party ain't jumpin' like it used to
Even though this might bruise you
Let it burn let it burn

the usual suspect said::

5/18/2004 02:15:00 PM :D

Friday, May 14, 2004

+suicide anthem+

Notice me, take my hand
Why are we strangers when
Our love is strong
Why carry on without me

Everytime I try to fly, I fall
Without my wings, I feel so small
I guess I need you, baby
And everytime I see you in my dreams
I see your face, you're haunting me
I guess I need you, baby

I make believe that you are here
It's the only way I see clear
What have I done
You seem to move on easy

I may have made it rain
Please forgive me
My weakness caused you pain
And this song's my sorry

At night I pray
That soon your face will fade away

disturbing.
cos its from britney.
and i actually fancy it.
the words only.
hurhurs.

i.cried.in.the.shower.last.nite.

weird.
enthralling at the same time.
actually felt gd that for once
the tears dun linger
i never wipe my tears away myself.
never.

watched win a date with tad hamilton wit joel on mon
loved topher grace (nice surname) the underdog
tad was the hot star. n he was well... hot

the most amazing thing was something frm a chick flick like this actually rubbed off me me. couldnt forget bout it. esp when it came frm a minor character.
the bartender in the movie (big girl. big tits. big tattoo on tits)said something like this:
"when someone gets so hurt. he cant stay ard anymore. he has to run away. the chapter would be closed and he will eventually find someone whom he loves second most in this world. when the chapter is closed. it is truly truly over"

second most?
there is hope in this world afterall.

the usual suspect said::

5/14/2004 05:38:00 PM :D

Wednesday, May 05, 2004

tim asked me yest wad happened to the sarcasm the sardonism
the idiot was tryin to annoy me as usual
but he made me smile

i found some gd out of this whole fuckin bullshit

now i am wad u wanted me to be so badly before
jus that u wont be here to see it

but other ppl can
that aint so bad really.

felt ten feet tall all over again. yay.

the usual suspect said::

5/05/2004 02:19:00 PM :D

Monday, May 03, 2004

"The most exciting, challenging and significant relationship of all is the one you have with yourself. And if you find someone to love the you you love, well, that's just fabulous." -Carrie

how true.

i miss mr big. but i also miss the happy spirit i once
chainsmokin happy-go-lucky and annoyingly-positive-bout-everything bitch.
that was me.
i miss it.
hopefull ill go back to wad i used to be soon.
at least i was happier.

i.love.my.marlboros.
and bitches too of cos

the usual suspect said::

5/03/2004 05:43:00 PM :D