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Tuesday, February 24, 2004

I was so high I did not recognize
The fire burning in her eyes
The chaos that controlled my mind
Whispered goodbye and she got on a plane
Never to return again
But always in my heart

This love has taken its toll on me
She said Goodbye too many times before
And her heart is breaking in front of me
I have no choice cause I won't say goodbye anymore

I tried my best to feed her appetite
Keep her coming every night
So hard to keep her satisfied
Kept playing love like it was just a game
Pretending to feel the same
Then turn around and leave again

This love has taken its toll on me
She said Goodbye too many times before
And her heart is breaking in front of me
I have no choice cause I won't say goodbye anymore

I'll fix these broken things
Repair your broken wings
And make sure everything's alright
My pressure on her hips
Sinking my fingertips
Into every inch of you
Cause I know that's what you want me to do

This love has taken its toll on me
She said Goodbye too many times before
And her heart is breaking in front of me
I have no choice cause I won't say goodbye anymore

this love.maroon 5.

sometimes i wonder if this is dat wad you're trying to tell me...

the usual suspect said::

2/24/2004 04:09:00 PM :D

Monday, February 23, 2004

im back ladies n gentlemen. really aint in the mood to blog nowadays. too many thots goin thru my head n so many things i wanna say but there aint a reason to anymore. i feel shit when ppl get upset cos they see wad i am now. i noe i totally degraded n surprisingly there are ppl out there who hurt when i hurt. its really astounding. part of me haf always believed tt i am a mere speck of dirt on earth n if one dae i shud ever disappear, no one wld even notice. the world wld go on. ppl move on. thats jus how it works n nobody can do a thing bout it.

certain ppl haf kindly made space fer me in their lives n im truly grateful.

mar: thanks fer lettin me join u and ur friends. it really made me feel better n i dun dwell as much. i apologise fer spacin out at times. i still cant completely pretend that i aint hurtin anymore. its jus something i gotta used used to. bestie ur still the one i can truly count on. im jus glad u fully understand wad im goin thru n u never say the wrong stuff at the wrong time. i dun hafta say anything but ull noe. im so glad the connection's there no matter wad.

sab: sweetie both our comps are down. so u prob wont see dis. im bloggin frm the damn sch comp. but i love the super noisy (clicky clicky clicky) keyboards. heh. wad can i say? ur the perfect valentine. chinatown was fantabulous. lets do it again yea? when both of us chill tog i feel so sex in the city! hehe i love ya babe. my pillar of support, strength n hope. -bites-

vern: u n man tou are soooooo cute tog plz dun ever stop abusin her. i love to join in n put dat silly man tou in total agony. -sadistic laughter- shes great to torture izzen she? n ur ang pao is the best bookmark ever. inspires me durin lit darl. i wld always turn to u cos our friendship graduated past the bitchin n nitpickin part. now i love u simply jus fer u n i noe u feel it too. u hot mamasan!

vic: girl even thou im burnt n wasted ur gentle concern n sweet encouraging words really lifted my spirits. i feel at peace when u talk to me. even thou i dun see much of u hon ull always be close to my heart. n plz dun quarrel so much or say things u dun mean in a fit of anger. it will still inflict pain. i noe u love dawn to death so think happy thots when both of u are mad. im the best eg of wad cld go wrong n im sure u wont go this way yea? dawns great darlin dun let this one go yea? (erm that will be 5 bucks, dawn?)

jin: ur so far away yet ur concern n love is rite beside me. jin u dunno how touched i was. one simple msg brought tears to my eyes. if u can be so far away n care a great deal bout me. why cant he when im rite here fer him? hope ull be back soon things jus aint the same without ya. the bitches aint complete without ya. ilu babe.

bitches ive been down ive been totally defeated. the pain is still so raw and goin strong. but i needed u guys n u guys were here fer me. i thank each n everyone of u and im tryin my best to be strong n live life as normally as i can. there will be times when i feel weak n sink back into my depression but help me along kae? i noe u guys will. GROUP HUG!

tim: ill be brash here. u n ash go great tog! two white guys. pretty fly. hoho. thanks fer the movie. it was sick watchin two old wrinkly ppl get it on thou. heh n the squealy keanu reeves fan club members. double yuck. nice movie all the same. got a clear pict on how i look like fer the last couple of wks. (she cryin n all...) shudders*

chok: thanks fer bein my answerin machine. i noe u din haf much to say cos u said it all b4. i feel bad fer imposin my burdens on u. i really hope u dun mind takin em fer me. like u said. be patient. n i will do so. thanks bro.

+i drive myself insane wishin i can see ur face
+but the truth remains. ur
+gone+

the usual suspect said::

2/23/2004 04:24:00 PM :D

Monday, February 09, 2004

its over and done with.

the damage is done so i guess ill be leaving.

but it also made me see where the love is comin from.

i love ya bitches.

i din arrive at no dead end.

new beginnings await.

u can turn off the sun but hey im still gonna shine!

the usual suspect said::

2/09/2004 01:54:00 PM :D